Just Because...

'Then'

2010-05-04T01:26:00.004+08:00

I guess this is 'then'. It's here now.

Smiling :)

2008-12-02T10:45:00.019+09:00

The moon was smiling over Perth last night.
Looking up at the animated heavenly picture, one more wish went up.
I'm gonna miss Perth while I'm away for a short few weeks.
Have a very merry and joyful Christmas everybody :)

No Dressing

2008-06-14T23:45:00.003+08:00

My first salad.

Persistent

2008-06-13T10:56:00.000+08:00

Fell asleep saying my bedtime prayer... It's the same lengthy lines every night I may have bored God, too.. :)

Breakfast

2008-05-14T10:06:00.003+08:00

Kawat, a cup of tea, almond slices. Have a good day!

Minta Chips...

2008-05-09T16:14:00.006+08:00

Teman makan siang di belakang city library.

The Very Definition...

2008-02-26T00:59:00.004+09:00

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves." Corinthians

Geographically Challenged

2007-12-17T10:12:00.000+09:00

Not a fan of Gibran, but I guess He and I agree on one thing...

...Love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.

True Believer

2007-11-28T13:45:00.000+09:00

...But the funny thing about answered prayers is they come to you in unexpected ways.- Marvin Warren

To Err Is Human To Forgive Divine...

2007-09-12T14:20:00.000+08:00

Maaf Lahir Batin. Selamat Puasa. Semoga Berkah. Aamiin...

He who shows hatred to those who hate, will never be at peace; He who is patient with those who hate, will find peace; such is the Law. He who bears ill-will to ill-wishers, can never be pure, But he who feels no ill-will, pacifies them who hate; As hatred brings misery to mankind, the wise man knows no hatred -- The Buddha

Rare Commodity

2007-08-22T20:51:00.000+08:00

Where do people go to buy some time? Provided that one has time to go look for and buy them.

A Game?

2007-07-29T13:59:00.000+08:00

After several 'aqcuaintances' with the 'cave men', I have to acknowledge your theory, John. It was not very easy to play along. I tend to quit the game to preserve my sanity. My bad.

Consequence

2007-07-24T14:19:00.001+08:00

Yeap, I missed out on this one.
And many more Kodak moments to come...

Winter In This Other Half Of The Globe -Reposted-

2007-07-02T13:00:00.001+08:00

No snowflakes :). But a lot of hot chocolate.
I wonder if the birds fly north instead of south...

Fine Line

2007-07-01T00:03:00.000+08:00

It's discouraging to know if patience, to some extend, may infact turn into obliviousness or even stupidity.
But be patient anyway...

Until Then, It's Here...

2007-06-30T08:38:00.000+08:00

Pic. Courtesy of Om Rani

Still Here...

2007-03-03T15:18:00.000+09:00

Seems ignored. But thought of every so often... Been occupied. Be right back!

Curling Up Season

2006-12-12T20:35:00.001+09:00

This Little Guy

2006-12-12T01:52:00.000+09:00

Here is Afif when I was there last month. No embarassing sob this year! I'm just all grown up now. Huhuhu.. Umm maybe I cheated a little. He was fast asleep when I left at 5 in the morning. I'm not really good with goodbyes. So sneaking out was the better way. Afif is also all grown up now. He's a rather serious kid. But a 3 y.o. will always be 3. You wont believe how mealtime with him could resemble a middle east peace negotiation. I'll tell you more about him later. More of Afif's on my flickr.

Ebony & Ivory

2006-09-25T14:00:00.000+08:00

The church on my street put a banner up wishing moslems Selamat Puasa.
It's just touching...
My whole life I've never seen a mosque wishing Christians Selamat Natal.

Living...

2006-09-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

Got home from babysitting. Syalwa put on several ounces. She's so soft and mushy like strawberry jam and like duck feather cushion. Syawal was handful as always. Tiring as always. And irresistable as always.
Soak in a bag of tea. Run the water in the tub. Put on Natalie Merchant's one Fine Day. Start the decent weekend.

Hiks...

2006-07-27T13:43:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm... days are dragging lately. I miss Afif with glazing eyes and a long sigh every 3 years old I see with his mom.

Anytime...

2006-05-10T13:55:00.000+08:00

The things I look for the most since I moved here are the things like barging in to one of the girl's room and dragging them out of bed --from their deep serene beauty nap-- to go get ice cream or siomay. We are allowed to do this without being considered intruding :)

Bad Day

2006-04-27T16:09:00.000+08:00

When you've had a bad day, don't you just wanna go home to familiar faces? They don't have to do or say anything. They don't even have to know if you just had a bad day. Just be there when you open the door. If you agree with me raise your hand...

Untamed Heart... --Reposted--

2006-04-26T11:35:00.001+08:00

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Caroline: What did the doctor say?
Adam: That I'm not allowed to stick knives in my stomach.
Caroline: Adam your heart is diseased! You need a new one.
Adam: But this is my heart! I'm afraid that if they take it away I won't be able to love you the same.
Caroline: You don't really love with your heart, it's just a saying.You love with your mind and soul, not you heart.
Adam: [Touching his chest] Then how come I hurt here when you're not with me?
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Apparently I have a weak heart for romantic movies :D.
People love with the mind not with the heart. Given that your heart is perfectly fine and healthy, if you are crazy, as in insane crazy, as in psychotic crazy, as in you-are-mentally-ill-you-need-to-be-institutionalized crazy, will you be able to love?

Series Of Choice

2006-04-07T13:57:00.000+08:00

A lot of times we know what is good for us but choose to do otherwise. It's never not our choice.

"...Afterall, life is nothing but series of choices."

From an episode of Lost the ABC series season 1. After I chose to be a couch potato.

Tell Me...

2006-03-30T13:02:00.000+08:00

'Do people understand... or they tolerate?'

Took psychology in my senior year. Wanting to understand why people do what they do. Too naive yaa.. Hehe

Three Years Of Wonder

2006-03-28T17:08:00.000+08:00

Here he is. Three years old today. Got me all charmed and spellbound. You know how they say that little kids are so privileged. They blabber meaninglessly and still be understood. Explore every possibility to be nonsense yet still make sense. Some grown ups ask that much attention hehe. Happy Birthday... Light Of The Universe...

The Weather...

2006-03-06T12:01:00.000+08:00

The Scientist: so... if there is a color to describe your day today, what is that color
The Saint: Cream?
The Scientist: why?
The Saint: I feel a bit creamy...
The Scientist: like coffee?
The Saint: No... Like cafe latte with too much milk?
The Saint: What's your color today?
The Scientist: mine is blue
The Scientist: cos i'm happy
The Scientist: because last night I read a lot of stuff
The Saint: Cool...
The Saint: But isnt blue when you are sad?
The Scientist: depend of ppl
The Saint: Ok...

So what is creamy weather?

From The Weekend DVD Rally

2006-02-27T15:48:00.000+08:00

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Maggie Feller: Shoes like this should not be locked up in a closet! You should be living a life of scandal. You should be getting screwed in an alley behind a club by a billionaire while his wife waits in the car and he told her he just forgot his wallet!
Rose Feller: Please tell me you just made that up.

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Ryan: You know, I came over here, and I was noticing you, and well, wow. You're like...cute!
Maggie Feller: Darling, you're like twelve!
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Maggie Feller: The art of losing isn't hard to master; so many things seem... f... filled... with the intent to be lost that their loss is no disaster. Lose something every day. Accept the fluster of lost door keys, the hour badly spent. The art of losing isn't hard to master. I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster, some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent. I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster. Even losing you... the joking voice, a gesture I love... I shan't have lied. It's evident the art of losing's not.too hard to master though'it may look like... Write it!... like disaster.

The Theory Of Idealism

2006-02-13T17:02:00.000+08:00

You know how your mom always told you to finish dinner and one of the reason why was because there were many kids in Africa who were starving. I've been finishing dinner since years ago now but the African kids are still starving. Even with the UN there.

Firsts

2006-01-09T18:22:00.001+08:00

Afif was 16 months old when he first walked.
His first walk to me was like a month later when I just arrived home for a quick visit. He held his one shoe in his hand and slowly walked towards me and was smiling hesitantly. He reached my hands, handed me the shoe, and hugged me.
There's a punch in my chest knowing I won't be there through his many firsts.

Seasons Greetings

2006-01-05T18:37:00.000+08:00

...Well, my days went by at a dizzying pace. I was always running to and fro. And then before I even knew where I was, off to dreamland I would go. I'm the one who's always being swept away. But now I realize that a day of my life is the price I must pay for tomorrow. I've thaught to treasure every day with its joy and its sorrow...

...Now that night has finally come to the busy city sky where quietly the moon is shining down on the paths of people hurrying home, she sheds her light all around. Silently at the close of day we'll pray. Tomorrow's just a dream away, Close the curtain on today... --Emi Fujita, edited--

Winter Sentiment

2005-12-27T12:49:00.000+08:00

Every other season came along and I was alright... --Mariah Carey

The Saint

2005-12-19T00:26:00.002+08:00

Simon Templar: I am Marin Depores. I am from Spain but I am named for a Peruvian Saint, who could cure the sick, or the injured, by the laying of hands.
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Simon Templar: My name is Buro Houtenfaust. I was named for a Saint who was a very wealthy man. He had the wine, the women, the songs, the whole bit, and then inexplicably, took a vow of poverty and became a hermit. Ran off to live in the forest, in the nude.
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Simon Templar: My name is Thomas Moore. I was named after a Saint who died for his faith.
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Simon Templar: Allow me to introduce myself. My name is August Christopher. I was named for St. Augustan, who coined my favorite phrase, 'Give me chastity and give me constancy, but do not give it yet.'
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Saintcatherine: My name is...Saint Catherine. I named myself after... no particular Saint. There are actually 6 Saints by the name of Catherine. Some were Saintly by their holiness and religious perfection. Some by their mystical experiences of apparition. And some by their noble life, piety, charity, and kindness. As previously stated, no particular Saint inspired the the name 'saintcatherine'. The author of this blog --which is me-- merely enjoys The Saint as one of her favorite movies and likes the feel of pronouncing saintcatherine at the tip of her tongue.

Unintentional Self-Consciousness

2005-12-08T11:45:00.002+08:00

My Boss gave me a mug for my birthday. The writing says

"All men are animals. But some make better pets"

I was chuckled when I read it. I couldn't help but thinking if he was beginning to be self-conscious for whatever reason. And that he was speaking on behalf of his 'kind'. Until he asked "Kok ketawa sih, lucu ya, emang artinya apa?"

Gubraak...!!!!

First Scraped Knee

2005-12-03T12:36:00.000+08:00

Talked to Afif Thursday night. He told me he had tripped and fallen. His knees were scraped and bleeding. He just got back from my parents' place and ran towards the gate. That was the first time he had fallen and had a scraped knee.

"I wish I was a little girl again, because scraped knees are easier to heal than a bruised heart." --Jessica Something--

Huehuehue. It's so true. So he should be alright. Most kids if not all have scraped knee now and then. Like most people if not all have bruised heart now and then. Anyhow, Afif should be alright. He was telling me about it all cheery and blabbering. Like he hadn't been hurt at all.

Hot Chocolate Season

2005-11-29T11:48:00.000+08:00

Every remark is always... delicious.

Overwhelming Thanksgiving

2005-11-22T16:40:00.000+08:00

An excerpt from a forwarded email sent to me on Thanksgiving Day.

"Sahabat wanita membawakan kau kari ayam dan menggosok kamar mandimu ketika kau membutuhkan pertolongan.."

And does your laundry even when she has loads of.
And remembers your nephew too when she shops for her nieces.
And calls up your mom now and then coz she knows you're far away.
And stayed up all night to sew on sequences for the dress you were going to wear for your sister's wedding the next evening while you had a good night sleep tired from running errands.
And all the little and spesific things that make having girlfriends great.

Happy Thanksgiving Day Girlfriends... And everybody!

A Token Of My Amusement

2005-11-15T15:59:00.000+08:00

Since day one of my arrival, my 'whole entire universe' a.k.a my shoulder bag had had a 'whole different universe' in it. Besides the regular girl's must-have-dont-leave-home-cant-live-without-it items, there were wet disinfectant tissues, diapers, cartoons of chocolate milk, water bottle, miniature race car, Timezone Power Card, and amusement ride tokens. Among other. They're not there anymore now. Except for one.

A ride token came rolling out of my coin purse today as I was paying for a toast. Afif's eyes would all shine sparkling on a train or plane ride with that token. One token is all it takes to put sparkles in his eyes... and mine.

Here We Go Again

2005-11-13T22:50:00.000+08:00

It was a fine leap from my 'normal' rythm. Although I screwed now that I'm back. A lot of cathcing up to do. Emails, all read, replied, and deleted. Late due reports, I'll get by. Account and bills, balancing. Book loan, two weeks fine --oops-- Emotional set back, uuhhmmmmm.... hanging on. And a place call office to go to every morning. Done reality check. Time to wake up.

Anticipating

2005-10-31T14:29:00.000+08:00

Less than 24 hours from now I'm gonna see Afif. I don't care if it's not his wake-up time yet, he has to pick me up at the airport when I arrive tomorrow morning.
But I already dread the day I'm gonna leave again :( I'll just skip that day and leave a day early...

2005-10-28T15:04:00.000+08:00

"Have a heart that never hardens, a temper that never tires and a touch that never hurts." Charles Dickens

Couldn't Agree More

2005-10-24T11:18:00.000+08:00

"One Thing That Really Makes Us Sober In This World Is The Sheer Cold Fact That We Can Only Do Our Best. The Rest Ya Sebagaimana Izin Allah..." Aditya Mulya

The very thought can miraculously be the source of my strength and serenity at times of near insanity.

Emergency Landing In Puerto Rico

2005-10-21T13:35:00.001+08:00

Strange dream last night. My dreams are always weird anyway. They almost always overlap in time, people, location, happenings. Last night I was on a supposedly small airplane that all the sudden opened up to a luxurious huge ballroom and served fine dining. And then the plane had to make an emergency landing due to engines failure. Guess where my dream randomly picked an airport? An airforce base in Puerto Rico. The first two things on my mind were that Puerto Rico is a US territory so we'll be safe --Dunno where I got the idea from-- and the other was 'Isn't Ricky Martin from Puerto Rico?'. Then the pilot gathered us to give explanation of the situation but he stopped and went back to look for his manual. I thought he meant a book on 'Flying Aircraft For Dorks' but he came back with a motocycle magazine. Weird. I should go check on astrology.com and see what they have to say. I don't think weird dreams have meanings tho'.

The King Himself

2005-10-13T22:17:00.000+08:00

Afif Two years and a half. Time Flies. More here

Never Fail You

2005-10-03T19:42:00.000+08:00

I believe all along that Friends never fail you. Always there when you're down. Always there whenever you're in need of entertainment and comfort. Always there to let you forget all your troubles. Always there to put a big smile on your face. Even to make you laugh until you come crawling down on the floor. And even when you're falling asleep, they keep going until all 4 episodes of the DVD.

I was talking about the 'Friends' series. You know Rachel, Monica, & Joey. Yeah, those stupid characters but couldn't live without them. No offense.

But come to think about it, my friends can do those role perfectly too. Only that they're not machine operated device that you can push the button when ever you need. That's why we don't break them to pieces or smash them onto the wall when we fail each other.

How 'Bout That...

2005-09-12T16:06:00.000+08:00

Talked to this little guy here a while ago.

'Ai sayang Bunda Lia?'
'..., ..., ..., Ndaaaa'

Oooouuuchh... How 'bout that for a stab right through the heart.
Ow Well... I caught him in the wrong time. His mom went 'He answers no to every question now' to cheer me up.

Just To... Maybe To... Or to...

2005-09-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

Just got back from Bandung with the grandparents and aunts. My back still hurts and I got a light headache. I need a 12-hour sleep to recharge. I wish I don't have to show up for work tomorrow --but then most probably my paycheck won't show up for me--

I was supposed to babysit for Syawal on Saturday. I had promised. But I went to BDG with the aunts and grandparents instead with the presumption that the baby was gonna come with us. But his mom decided to bring him to work with her. I felt bad. Not too much... I mean, I would always babysit for him anytime. This is probably the first time I 'left' him. Besides, I really thought he would come with us.

The two points above sums up my regular weekend. It's either the grandparents or babysitting for me. I have a pathetic social life :). If you count family get together as a social event then I definetely have a vibrant social life. I'm not complaining. My family is fun --seriously, you should meet my grandpa-- We crack up jokes all the time. And baby Syawal is too adorable not to babysit for. Just seemingly, come to think about it, that's all I do this past year. Well, I'd have a girls day out with Diva whenever opporrtunity allows --opportunity here means when her husband is out of town or has to work on weekend--. That doesn't come often either.

As for a time for me. I'd squeeze in a couple of hour to go sit in the library. They have an adjacent coffee shop now. But then it only gives me enough time to return books and checked out a couple more --never have finished an entire book at home even after an extended 3 weeks loan--. I never seem to find time to spend a full day looking for a pair of shoes that is so me --I need a fullweek in that case ;)--. Afif also needs a new jacket. Or just to finish a Nicholas Spark in one sit. Or to have a slumber party at my place or one of the girls'. Ow... This is not an option geographically speaking :D A two-hour bubble bath coming home on Sunday, If I get home on Sunday, is all I look forward to. Put in movies, too. So... My weekend should be alright. But not too... 'social', if there is such term.

I seemed to have all the time in the world when I was in college. I didnt care much about time management back then. It's either sleep or out with the girls. And just when I know a little, there's not much time to manage. Is the clock ticking faster nowadays?

It's Autumn Again

2005-09-06T22:20:00.000+08:00

It's Autumn In New York --Ephy and I Love the movie. You should see it if you haven't-- It doesn't get any prettier than this anywhere. Pardon me if I seem to be talking about seasons only. Afterall when one season comes the other is just around the corner. Very little time to talk about everything else in life. And afterall it's my blog. I can talk about whatever pleases me ;)

Popped Up On My Mind And On My Cell

2005-09-02T07:29:00.000+08:00

Just got off 'smsan' with Al. I dont talk to her much. Funny was, I thought about her and all the girls the whole day and really wanted to talk to them. She popped up on my cell. I got menstrual cramps which I dont usually get, a bit too much workload that I'm regularly used to, and to sum up my misery, an internal meeting until way pass my punch out time. Phheeeww.. What else do you need besides your best friends' chattering mouth and a bar of Hershey. Since both were unavailable, I had settled for a cup of tea. It's like when all else fail, there's always tea.

I know this is what you get when you choose making life elsewhere. I'm not complaining.. I'm sighing.. Ow well, Great weekend y'all..

The Truth About Love -- TOEFL Version

2005-08-26T14:03:00.000+08:00

___ causes people to fall in love remains one of the most basic human mysteries.

A). That
B). What
C). It
D). Whom

Love is an emotion that can not be ___

A). Defined easy
B). An easy definition
C). Easily defined
D). Defining Easily

These were in my 2000 practice questions. No matter how intrigued you are to analyse the content of the sentence, try very hard not to. Stick to the structure and make your choice. You will run out of time otherwise if you think about it too long. But besides the point, If you do insist on pondering some more about this four-letter word, I have no suggestion :) Have a great weekend...

Life Doesn't Come With Instuctions

2005-08-25T18:12:00.000+08:00

santamonica66763 : She's a good person
santamonica66763 : She deserves everything good
drum freak : But not every bad person deserves bad thing
santamonica66763 : Agree...

drum freak : Maybe for some,
drum freak : things doesn't come out like what the Cosmo said
drum freak : and it's okay to dump those magz,
drum freak : then look for another 'bible'
santamonica66763 : Hehehe... It's fun to read
santamonica66763 : Like to make Newsweek as my bible
santamonica66763 : but it lacks manual on handling life

November, 2004

Control Freak

2005-08-01T00:08:00.000+08:00

A guy : Let me help you Ma'am
Melanie : No thank you. I can get it
A guy : No, no.. Please
Melanie : NO, really! I got it
A guy : Stupid American woman
Sammy : Mom, that guy just called you stupid
Melanie : Well I am stupid sometimes honey. But I'd rather be stupid than sorry.
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Another guy : After you Ma'am
Melanie : No, after you Sir
Another guy : No, no.. I insist
Melanie : I insist more
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Cozy Corner & Comfy Couch...

2005-07-15T23:08:00.000+08:00

Just add a good book and a cup of choco. And you're all set for the evening. Have a great weekend everybody!

Summer On Hold

2005-07-15T11:25:00.000+08:00

Tony Blair inhabits a dangerous world. According to the British prime minister's trusted advisers, the planet is heating up fast. Temperatures in the northern hemisphere are rising more rapidly than at any time in the last thousand years. Hundreds of millions of people are at increased risk from flooding as sea levels rise. Changing weather patterns will exact a "heavy human and economic" cost. And mankind is, to "a greater or lesser extent," to blame.
George W. Bush is more fortunate. His world is much rosier. His advisers do not agree that global warming is underway and do not think that urgent action is called for, according to a leaked draft of the communique for the upcoming G8 summit. The Bushies went through the document and bracketed each point they took issue with. "Anything of any possible significance was between square brackets," says Tony Grayling, head of the sustainability program at the Institute for Public Policy Research, a London-based think tank. The White House hasn't commented.
Newsweek International July 11

So... What else is new?
Let's just talk about the weather and leave politics out. It is raining here infact . And it's July. You can say the weather is weird. It's should be summer by now. Good thing about summer is that it's two seasons away to winter.

Logic On Leave

2005-07-14T13:32:00.000+08:00

My logic was on a break anyway. My left brain refused to function. It decided to take a long vacation after some years of overwork. Ow well...No biggie.

Afif Naya Kiss

2005-07-13T10:56:00.000+08:00

Afif Naya Kiss,
originally uploaded by St. Catherine.

My baby boy didn't know what to do when a girl kissed him... Cute :) I think Naya knows her way around boys early on.

Oo...By The Way...

2005-07-07T10:51:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday... To the Land Of The Free And The Home Of The Brave. Whatever good for you is good for the world. :)

A Question Of Abnormality

2005-05-17T10:01:00.000+08:00

'When a man is tired of London, He is tired of Life..' Samuel Johnson.

When a man is tired of Jakarta, he's normal. Well...depends on what kind of living do you have in mind. Then we can question abnormality.. Just where ever you are, life is what you make it. Right?... Wrong?

Untamed Heart

2005-05-11T18:30:00.000+08:00

Adam: I am not very good with people.

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Adam: Do you like music, Caroline?

Caroline: Mmm. That's the first time I heard you say my name. It sounded... nice.

Adam: Would you like to listen to my records Caroline?... Caroline.

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Caroline: What's your dog's name?

Adam: I don't know. He never told me.

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[During her beauty exam]

Caroline: Lady, I'm not butchering your hair! It's a free haircut so stop your bitching before I cut it all off, you fat cow!

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Caroline: First guy to walk out of my life, definetly not the last. Funny things, you and me. You always stayin' away from love, me always chasin' after it.

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Caroline: My life is like watching The Three Stooges in Spanish!

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Cindy: It's not right to feel shitty this time of year, but everybody does. It's like this is life and once you go through it long enough you realize what the flavor is. And it sure ain't vanilla!

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Adam: I follow you home...

Caroline: You follow me home?

Adam: I wasn't finished.

Caroline: Finish.

Adam: I follow you home to make sure you're... safe.

Caroline: Well I never see you.

Adam: I stay pretty far behind. I'm sorry.

Caroline: Well, I mean, don't be sorry... I just...

Adam: I wasn't finished.

Caroline: Finish.

Adam: I am sorry I was late that night.

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Caroline: I never hear you speak and when you do you apologize for saving me?

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Adam: I wonder if you think about me.

Caroline: Of course I think about you!

Adam: I wasn't finished!

Caroline: Finish.

Adam: I wonder if you think about me half as much as I think about you.

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Caroline: I have fallen...

Adam: Are you hurt?

Caroline: I wasn't finished.

Adam: Finish.

Caroline: I have fallen so in love with you, so much more than I said I would.

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Caroline: He don't make sense, I don't make sense, together we make sense.

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Adam: I love hockey.

Caroline: You didn't even know what a power-play was.

Adam: I know. But next time you can tell me.

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Adam: You are my peace.

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Adam: You just wished on a planet.

Caroline: Figures.

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Caroline: He was like an angel, you know? I never knew life could be like that. He was the one thing I followed through in my life, the one thing I didn't give up on. I was good at loving him.

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Caroline: Magic records and a baboon heart...

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Caroline: What did the doctor say?
Adam: That I'm not allowed to stick knives in my stomach.
Caroline: Adam your heart is diseased! You need a new one.
Adam: But this is my heart! I'm afraid that if they take it away I won't be able to love you the same. Caroline: You don't really love with your heart, it's just a saying. You love with your mind and soul, not you heart.

Adam: [Touching his chest] Then how come I hurt here when you're not with me?

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Too lame..? Too bad... bite me...I've seen it hundreds of times ( Ok, I'm exaggerating ).

Think Jakarta...

2005-05-04T19:30:00.000+08:00

NBC Nightly News

Congested South: As millions of Americans move South in search of the "good life," they're dealing with a big city problem: Traffic. Don Teague reports tonight from Atlanta, where commuters are coping with congestion, construction, big trucks and bad drivers.

:) they haven't seen nothing yet...

Making Conversation...Talking About The Weather

2005-05-03T14:35:00.000+08:00

Lovely morning! Cloudy, my kinda weather. I even forgot to brush my hair leaving for office :) Like, who cares about bad hair day when it's beautiful outside. Thank God for the shampoos nowadays, they leave your hair untangled :) Anyway, talking about weather,... Amazing how the weather can clear out instantly after a storm. Ofcourse, the contrary applies when it comes to human moods... If you know what I mean.

Cup Of Water

2005-05-02T19:07:00.000+08:00

Beyondsky_glass_of_water
Originally uploaded by St. Catherine.

The idea of romantic things in life..., besides winter ofcourse. Too solitary? Tell me about it..hhuummpphh. Can't help my taste. Take it as a different point of view if you dont agree with me. Just dont conclude anything :) I just so happen to like them. By the way, all these were taken by Beyondsky and posted without permission. Oh well, not that I'm using them commercially anyway. So here they are... Click for more...

A Fine Idea

2005-03-01T12:06:00.001+08:00

Talking about hazelnut coffee... A cup of espresso and a slice of cheese cake is a fine idea this time of the day...

Sound Of Winter?!?!

2005-02-25T15:45:00.001+08:00

Was browsing by people's blog and noticing people have started to welcome Spring. Me never want Winter to end. The serenity of watching the falling snow in stillness, not of motion, but of sound. It's like there's a kind of hush, borrowing a song title. Should have a picture to illustrate but as you know.. I lost my Hello. Ok, I dont wanna bring it up again. It's too painful..!?!?!? :) Suddenly want a sprinkle of cinnamon on my hazelnut coffee.. Sooo Winter...

Papercut

2005-02-22T16:32:00.001+08:00

If you play with fire, you will get burnt. If you play with paper, you will get papercut. I get that almost everyday now working with load of paper. A slight cut all over my hands. Most likely I will find out that I just got another one in the shower. You know how cuts are with soap.

Limited Access

2005-02-18T14:21:00.000+08:00

Not only did the IT guys at the office ban Friendster and Yahoo Messenger, they also have taken away my privilege as the administrator of my station due to the excessive download of...porns! Let me remind you that my station is public. Anybody at my departement can log in to it using their own account or mine. I have no way of knowing who has used my pc but I know someone has misused it when the virus scan keeps popping up detecting trojans. But what has made it all the more miserable for me is that Hello has been deleted so I can no longer post picture to my blog :( And I cant re-install it. They have to reinstate my access. I'm gonna bomb the IT Dept. and shoot those editors... While I'm at it, you guys have a great day!

Baby Afif & Me

2005-02-15T15:09:00.000+08:00

This was written early January. I spent New Year with my family and friends in Makassar. It was alright. The bye-bye part with Ai was a bit of a drag. But not until the take off. I always intent to appear strong and tough in front of people. There he was holding a yellow race car toys and looking up at me as I was ready to give him my good-bye hug. I couldnt stand the look on his face. 'Da..da..NdaLia'. On the plane, the gentleman sat beside me was kind enough to distract my attention by keep making conversation. He noticed I was breaking down. I thanked him but never got to know his name. During his succesful effort to make me feel better, He was very resourseful on Malaysian goverment structure. I mean, what else would we talk about, we just met. He also said, if you are away from home you should be extra extra tough. He was talking to the toughest girl :) on planet earth who was all falling apart to pieces looking out the dissapearing blinking city and car lights way up from the plane window trying to spot one light. The light of her universe :(. I should've not taken the window seat. Anyway, I got snap shots of Ai and me. He just got his head shaved. He was refusing the scissor, or whatever the tool is the barber used, touching his head until the buzzer moved up and down his head and imitated a running car. Little boys and cars, go figure. Mind me saying that He is the most adorable little creature brought into my life. Not because He's mine, but because it's so true. I've gotten better without him though. The first days I was ever away from Him, I remember six months ago in a grocery trying so hard to fight back the tears only from brushing by the baby socks alley.

New Office

2005-02-02T16:19:00.000+08:00

The view of downtown Jakarta from my office window is quite fascinating. Not the beauty, but the jam-packed traffic and the irregular pattern of the buildings and streets. From 17th floor, I can see all the way across town. Since moving into the new office, we have 500% ( yes, 500% ) more work to do. It doesnt take 10 minutes for me to fall asleep when my head touches the pillow. Home at 8, in bed by 9. I used to feel sorry for those whose jobs are holding them after office hour. They may now welcome me to the club. It feels more and more like 'having a job' and actually have works to be done that is related to my occupation. You know, besides books, blogging, lounging, and all the fun stuff I got to do before. Is that my cue?

Beautiful Mind

2005-02-01T16:05:00.000+08:00

Nash : There could be a mathematical explanation for how bad that tie is.
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Alicia : It's called "life," John. Activities available; just add meaning.
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Alicia : I need to believe, that something extraordinary is possible.
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Alicia : God must be a painter. Why else would we have so many colors?
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Nash : Find a truly original idea. It is the only way I will ever distinguish myself. It is the only way I will ever matter.
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Nash : Alicia, does our relationship warrant long-term commitment? I need some kind of proof, some kind of verifiable, empirical data.
Alicia : How big is the universe?
Nash : Infinite.
Alicia : How do you know?
Nash : I know because all the data indicates it's infinite.
Alicia : But it hasn't been proven yet.
Nash : No.
Alicia : You haven't seen it.
Nash : No.
Alicia : How do you know for sure?
Nash : I don't, I just believe it.
Alicia : It's the same with love I guess.
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Nash : I've gotten used to ignoring them and I think, as a result, they've kind of given up on me. I think that's what it's like with all our dreams and our nightmares, Martin, we've got to keep feeding them for them to stay alive.
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Nash : I've made the most important discovery of my life. It's only in the mysterious equation of love that any logical reasons can be found. I'm only here tonight because of you. You're the only reason I am... you're all the reasons I am.
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Nash : Perhaps it is good to have a beautiful mind, but an even greater gift is to discover a beautiful heart.

Take The World And Give It Your Own Name!

2005-01-19T17:33:00.000+08:00

I'm not too crazy about New Year. It's just a term referring the new period of the earth circulating the sun. Is it? A bit late, was gonna post this for the occasion, but anyway... It's from my fave movie, Wedding Planner. The scene, Mary was home from work, opened the door to her apartment, hang the keys on the hook, put her bag on the foyer desk,... not important. Singing this sort of pumping up the spirit. Like you can take the world and give it your own name.

In Good Time

We can make believe/That everything makes sense/And there's no need to worry now/Coz' you're not like all the rest.../Living with only your heart/A new day arrives & its only the start/Of Something already here/The sky's open up/And its perfectly clear.../It's all waiting for you/You can take the world/And give it your own name/It's all there waiting for you/No matter what you find/You will never be the same.../Smile for the picture man dear/Its another day, another dream, ANOTHER NEW YEAR/And who knows what you'll find/But it's all comin' round/All in good time.../When you're standing alone/Facing the darkness/I did know /I know your light will never fade away/You will always be the one to shine...In good time. Jessica Sheely

So What Is It?

2005-01-18T17:54:00.000+08:00

If it's because of his/her eyes or his/her lips or his/her great body,
It's not love, it's LUST.
If it's because of his/her intelligence and practicality and insights about life,
It's not love, it's ADMIRATION.
If it's because he/she cries every time you try to leave,
It's not love, it's PITY.
If it's because he/she makes you forget to eat and sleep and study,
It's not love, it's INFATUATION.
If it's because he/she seems to be too weak to stand on his/her own,
It's not love, it's CONCERN.
If it's because he/she looks like your ex,
It's not love it's TRANSFERENCE.
If you can lay down your life for him/her,
It's not love, it's HEROISM.
Love is when you do not know why you seem to be attracted to a certain person love has its reason that reason cannot understand...

Hehehe. Puzzled? Join the club. This has made it all the more complicated, given that no definition has ever been accepted by my tangled and complex comprehension of 'the big word'. Or maybe you don't need to define it. Some people do last a lifetime without ever defining what love is. Or maybe it's not always the first on the list. Like.. people can get by without it. So what's the fuss?

Technicalities

2005-01-17T18:20:00.000+08:00

People seem to have theories on how to reach happiness and live life succesfully. At the end it's all about technicalities..

A Lot To Talk About

2005-01-14T19:07:00.000+08:00

Tuesday on NBC Nightly News ( 01/12/05 ) with Brian Williams:
What's up with Mother Earth? ... from the deadly tsunami in Southeast Asia to record rainfall in California and 70-degree January days in New York City, the world's climate seems to have taken an unexpected turn. NBC's Kerry Sanders talks to an earth scientist to find out what's happening. Is it all some sort of warning sign from our planet?

Can you tell I have a lot to talk about?

No Sign Of Life

2005-01-07T14:02:00.000+08:00

Almost a month without a single post. I'm a disgrace to the blogging world. I'll see you guys in a bit. .

My 'Grown Up' (?!?!) Christmas Wish

2004-12-10T15:10:00.000+08:00

Was wondering if I can ask for snow in my Christmas list. Either it's being brought to me or I'm being brought to it.

Seventeen Days To Christmas, But Who's Counting!?!

2004-12-08T11:41:00.000+08:00

Christmas is not Christmas without Christmas movies. We have our favorite Home Alone series ready. I saw Serendipity and While You Were Sleeping few days ago. Thought I started early. Dont I always get ahead of the season?

From While Your Sleeping
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Lucy : You give up your seat every day in the train.
Peter : Well... But that's not heroic.
Lucy : It is to the person who sits in it.
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Joe Jr. : O.K., Lucy, it's either me or him!
Lucy : Him.
Joe Jr. : You don't have to answer right away.
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Lucy : Doesn't anybody use a phone anymore?
Joe Jr. : I do.
Lucy : I'm not talking about 900 numbers.
Joe Jr. : Who told you?
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Lucy : The truth was that I fell in love with you.
Ox Callahan : You fell in love with me?
Lucy : No, N-o, yes. All of you. I went from being all alone to being a fiancee, a daughter a granddaughter, a sister and a friend.
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Jerry : You're born into a family. You do not join them like you do the Marines.
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Jack : What do you know about my family? Spending a week with them does *not* make you an expert!
Lucy : Spending a *lifetime* with them, hasn't make you one, either!
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Lucy : Do you believe in love at first sight? Nah, I betcha don't, you're probably too sensible for that. Or have you ever, like, seen somebody? And you knew that, if only that person *really* knew you, they would, well, they would of course dump the perfect model that they were with, and realize that YOU were the one that they wanted to, just, grow old with. Have you ever fallen in love with someone you haven't even talked to? Have you ever been so alone you spend the night confusing a man in a coma?
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Lucy : It's just... I never met anyone I could laugh with. You know?
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Elsie : I don't drink anymore... I don't drink any less, either!
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Elsie : I like Mass better in Latin. It's nicer when you don't know what they're saying.
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Peter : Ashley!
Ashley : Scumbag! You're engaged? May I remind you-you proposed to me?
Peter : You said no. We broke up.
Ashley : No, no. I was confused, we stepped back.
Peter : You moved to Portugal.
Ashley : Yes, well, I didn't think you were going to run out and marry the first bimbo.
Peter : Lucy's not a bimbo.
Ashley : Lucy? Lucy who?
Peter : I don't remember. I have amnesia.
Ashley : Amnesia. Oh that's rich. Alright, fine! I want my stuff back.
Peter : Then I want my stuff back.
Ashley : What stuff?
Peter : Your nose.
Ashley : [shocked] You can't have my nose back!
Peter : I paid for it.
Ashley : [gesturing to her breasts] Well then here! You paid for these too!
Peter : Keep it. I'm a changed man Ashley.
Ashley : Go ahead. Go ahead and marry her, you one-balled bastard.
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Priest : Dearly beloved, we are gathered here to...
Lucy : I object.
Saul : Oh, geez.
Priest : I didn't get to that part yet.
Jack : I would have to object too.
Priest : What about you?
Peter : I'm thinking!
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Ashley : Peter Callahan is engaged to me. I object to this wedding!
Priest : Get in line.
Ashley's husband : And I object to your objection.
Mary Callaghan : Who's that?
Peter : Ashley's husband.
Midge Callaghan : You proposed to a married woman?
Peter : Yes. And I'm in a coma when my brother makes a play for my- sort of my fiancée
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Lucy : I've had a really lousy Christmas, you've *just* managed to kill my New Year's, if you come back on Easter- you can burn down my apartment.
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Lucy : You don't have to walk me home.
Jack : You block the wind.
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Jack : I want you... not to be unhappy...
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Lucy : Peter once asked me, when it was that I fell in love with Jack, and I told him, it was 'while you were sleeping'.
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What's On Your Mind?

2004-12-06T15:54:00.000+08:00

'...A penny for your thought?..' Mommy Walker, One Saturday brunch in June some years ago, Bamboo House, our favourite Chinese restaurant for weekend. Me sitting by the big glass window overlooking highway 69 watching the cars passing by or so I thought... Or thoughts adrifting gazing vacantly into the air.

Jerry Maguire

2004-12-03T17:34:00.000+08:00

Dorothy : I've had three lovers in the past four years, and they all ran a distant second to a good book and a warm bath.
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Dorothy : Maybe love shouldn't be such hard work.
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Jerry Maguire : What do you want from me? My soul?
Dorothy : Why not? I deserve that much.
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Jerry Maguire : I love you. You... complete me.
Dorothy : Shut up. Just shut up. You had me at "hello."
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Getting Comfortable?

2004-11-30T23:37:00.000+08:00

Lovely morning, fine misty weather, a good start of the day. I came up to my floor and smelled my shower cream. A sweet invigorating scent of orange aromatheraphy. I wonder if the cleaning guy did use some shower cream to mop the floor. He didn't ofcourse, but the liquid he used is also scented with orange aromatheraphy. I guess more and more people need every possible form of mind relaxing theraphy. But the exact same fragrance on my skin and on the floor?

Yesterday, I surprisingly had some work to be done at the office that took up most of the day. I wasn't exactly drowning in a sea of paperworks that you can't see me sitting behind my desk. Enough to make me forget to return 2 calls and extend my book loan. My frantic day would be a shorter-list day for everyone else. Anyway, this is like waiting for another shoe to drop. I've told myself not to get too comfortable. But 4 months is getting-too-comfortable.

From Some Seasons Ago...

2004-11-25T12:19:00.000+08:00

...When the going gets tough and the tough gets going.

So American...

2004-11-24T11:39:00.000+08:00

Maikel : Alhamdulillah fine. Tgl 25 hari Kamis, tapi seingatku biasanya hari Selasa sekolah mulai libur. Why? Dont tell me you're celebrating it.
Santamonica66763 : Not in a festive way. But why not? We can thank God everyday but I think it's a good idea to have a day where giving thanks is... official?!?! I'd like to wish Happy Thanksgiving to my hostfam. Was gonna wish you too but seemingly you don't acknowledge it.
Maikel : Since you define it as to be thankful to God, I agree with you. It's just the idea of American culture thing discouraged me. With your perspective, I'd go along...
Santamonica66763 : Iya sih kadang2 I reminisce moment like Thanksgiving and Christmas in US.
Maikel : I see.. You have good old times memory with these events. I guess I never really grasp Thanksgiving, I thought it all about European coming to America.
Santamonica66763 : Is it? I never really know the history.

Here's a kiddy site on The History of Thanksgiving. And... I took a silly test on 'What Part of Thanksgiving are You?'. Result is... 'You Are the Stuffing. You're complicated and complex, yet all your pieces fit together. People miss you if you're gone - but they're not sure why.' Hahaha. Happy Thanksgiving!

Nothing Grand. Really...

2004-11-10T14:28:00.000+08:00

Three months going on four. Never thought before I'd last this long. Keep checking on papers and got ecstatic to find some that I could project myself devoted to for a long period of time, before, and after, finding my way back to school. They suit the rather perfect scheme of gratifying work. I don't have any idea for a peace resolution in Middle East, nor do I have the courage to work for the refugee in armed conflict area. Nothing grand. Perhaps one that will make me contented at the end of the day and coming home knowing I have directly made a difference in people's life, even the tiniest, because I have worked for a cause, not merely for the purpose of paying the bills, getting a sweater that is so me, or buying chinas for mom. If there's one that encompasses all that, I don't see why not. Now, one can say, I'm having too much fun with much abandonment to my yearning. I fool around some 80% of my work hour and manage to get the task done promptly. Day in day out, I would slouch on the sofa in the lounge reading novels over French vanilla coffee. Either that or browsing, blogging, chatting, or talking on the phone. Sounds like a treat? You bet. But why do I want something else?

If I can stop one heart from breaking,

I shall not live in vain;

If I can ease one life the aching,

Or cool one pain,

Or help one fainting robin

Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.
--Emily Dickinson--

The Way He Remembers Me

2004-11-09T17:05:00.000+08:00

He's not so difficult to please. He spends a lot of time playing with scattered pieces of paper with car pictures his mom had ripped out from mags. He would mumble holding the paper as if he was reading or telling stories. It just made my day that he likes to do it.
He has an album full of car pics that he looks for first thing he wakes up in the morning. After tossing away his bottle ofcourse. Later in the afternoons, I would sit him on my lap, start turning pages and pointing at the pictures and saying things like telling him a story. Just make up stuffs. You will quickly bore your self up with all the rambling sentences you came up with, but He wouldn't let you stop and would tap your hand on the page when you did. Car pictures are fine for now. Next step, Dickens & Hemingway.

Simple Life

2004-11-09T15:09:00.000+08:00

'..Bill and I got married following our first-born/Daddy left this gas and convenience store just before he died/And I was only nineteen when I had my third baby/Sometimes I think maybe I should have left here long ago/Travelers are stopping by check their oil and their P.S.I./Gas up and away they fly moving down the line/But this beat up truck and worn out shoes/Always giving me the blues/Bill is sucking down the booze nearly every night/I've never seen the city lights how they must shine so bright/Not like this country night the sky's black as coal/And this gas station mountain home/Not a thing to call my own/I wish I was alone with a penny to my name/Strangers say this mountain here is beautiful beyond compare/But it's just a dumb old mountain there/I see it every day/If I could see a sunset skies over fields of grain or ocean tides/City skyline in the night I'll be dancing till the dawn/Maybe Bill and I someday will find a chance to get away/Until then it's here I'll stay wishing on a star..' Roger Henderson

Does this fit the description of simple life? Or is life never simple anyhow you live it... Hehehe. I think life is how you make it. It's all in the mind...

Although You Are Self-Reliant

2004-11-09T12:08:00.000+08:00

Nothing beats knowing the fact that there are people in your life who would gladly go out of their way to do simple, even big, favor for you. Even the ones who are not obliged to you. They come as surprise when you least expect them to. One sense of security covered, sixteen thousand more to go.

Girl Empowerment on Second Thought

2004-11-08T11:53:00.000+08:00

Ladies... If you are in your late 20's and single, You might wanna switch your reading from Cosmopolitan to... say... Parent's Guide. Hahaha... Cosmo makes you feel supergood to be single. And dwell on the idea. A conversation over the best marble cheese cake in town with old friends ignited the thought.

2004-11-05T11:17:00.000+08:00

This heartbreaking little guy has not the faintest idea how much I wanna have him in my arms. Can we have early Christmas this year?

It Was Not Until The Lights Of The Carnival Grew Dim

2004-11-02T16:16:00.000+08:00

It was one evening of the summer I spent in Owatonna. Mary and I had just got home from the Carnival. Mary had helped setting up the booth for the Democrat. We were tending the booth most of the evening. I met many people and remarkably remembered all of their names, even a week later. Mary was particularly impressed by that. I drained half of my energy for that actually.

The rest of the evening at the carnival, I wandered off. I found it amusing how big the turkeys were that had won purple ribbon, or yellow, or red, or blue --or maybe because I haven't seen many of them before--. There was the school booth. They put up the children's art work. That must have meant a lot for the kids for everybody to see their works. My favorite was the nursery manor's booth. The elderlies had made recycled greeting cards, bookmarks, and flower arrangements. I bought almost every card they put on display that day. For 50 cents each, you couldn't get any better deal. And of course there were cotton candy, corn dogs, taffy, and lemonade at just about every turn of the corner.

It was the very hamburger I had for dinner that evening that has made me decide to never have any more hamburger. The hamburger meat was so juicy and almost shocking pink. I took it as it was raw. So when, later on, Daddy Orville made hamburger for our barbecue nights out on the lawn, I refused them as many times. Sometimes I couldn't bear the look of disappointment on his face, I insisted on only eating around the edge of the hamburger where the meat would most likely be done. Fair enough. But I had to let him down the one time he barbecued for us toads or frogs or something in that species. Raw hamburger was one thing, and four-legged jumping green creature was another.

I enjoyed my little adventure at the carnival and worried a bit if my roaming alone lead me lost. I was, and am, never good with direction. But throw me a map, I'll figure it out. It was probably a simpler version of Alice in wonderland. Although I can't remember how the story goes.

I think it was Anna then who had found me and told me that we were ready to head home. Anna, for me, was a mixture of Kelly Osborne, minus the minus attitude, Edie Brickel, and Princess Diana. Got the picture? She is a very friendly girl without being too lively with pink hair and snake pet. She was trying to make me feel comfortable at all time during my stay with her and her family. Without much effort she apparently succeeded. I wish we could have stayed longer at the Carnival but some of the lights were out. It wasn't quite dark yet at 8.30 pm of the summer up north.

So we were home. Mike was working. He was a Pharmacist & a Manager of a 24 hours drug store downtown (if there was a downtown of a small town). He worked odd hours. I think that's how a drug store should operate. Available at any time. I didn't know where Tom was as I never have known. I'd say he was out of town to Wynona where his girlfriend lived. It was a about two hours ride eastern crossing the river and state border to a neighboring Wisconsin. Wynona Rider was actually born there. We dropped off Anna at Megans for sleep-over.

I remember sitting on the rocking chair in the living room rocking slowly as I was humming 'The Way We Were' to Mary's piano play. She said we should call a piano teacher so I can play and sing. We never quite got to it. I had to fly half way across the country down South, leaving the place for the longest time I thought I would never have missed should I had never come to know it. It's a place where you practically awakened in the morning by the chirping summer birds. I would slide the window up and scare away the birds, and was left with a total calmness gazing out the street. I'd still, now and then, be brought to the thought of quiet Owatonna by the smell of a certain kind of wood (I have a very limited knowledge of wood variety, I'd say it's cherry or oak). Or when I see a postman or a story telling at the library, or Oil of Olay, or Campbell soup.

A Winter Person

2004-11-01T14:57:00.000+08:00

I know it's not winter yet but let me get ahead. I'm sure it has started to get chilly now up there. Will it ever snow down here?

Bitter and Cynical?

2004-10-26T15:21:00.000+08:00

lovely_ephy : I just watched 50 first dates
lovely_ephy : lucu jg ya
santamonica66763 : not so to me
lovely_ephy: why?
santamonica66763 : I expect more
lovely_ephy : tp endingnya jg bagus
santamonica66763 : like most movie...
santamonica66763 : thats how they end
lovely_ephy : u prefer unusual ends?
santamonica66763 : perhaps...
santamonica66763 : I mean...
santamonica66763 : life's not always working out the way we plan
santamonica66763 : and hollywood screenwriter ought to realize that
santamonica66763 : they literally selling dreams
lovely_ephy : nah itu kan yg laku skrg
santamonica66763 : yeah...
santamonica66763 : Capitalist.. lacking moral value
lovely_ephy : but it makes people keep dreaming and reach it
santamonica66763 : dreaming and daydreaming
santamonica66763 : are two very diffent things
lovely_ephy : we are talking about dreaming right? arent we?
santamonica66763 : we are
santamonica66763 : what is your dream?
santamonica66763 : what are they...
santamonica66763 : live happily ever after?
lovely_ephy : maybe
santamonica66763 : u're not even sure..
lovely_ephy : i really wish sometime life can be like fairytale
santamonica66763 : those hollywood movies
santamonica66763 : have really got into you
lovely_ephy : yup
lovely_ephy : i wish sometimes we can be that lucky baby
santamonica66763 : any effort?
lovely_ephy : nope....just wish that there's a cute nice prince coming to save me
lovely_ephy : heheheee
santamonica66763 : have you heard Tata Young new song?
santamonica66763 : No cinderella
lovely_ephy : nope
santamonica66763 : '..I dont wanna be like cinderella waiting in a dark and dusty cellar waiting for somebody to come and set me free I'd rather rescue myself..'
lovely_ephy : but at least she lives happily ever after
santamonica66763 : heheheh
santamonica66763 : but you should really have a sense of hero for your self
santamonica66763 : like you can rescue your self
lovely_ephy : good point

I have to admit, I enjoy what those Hollywood screenwriter have to offer. The movies served their purpose. So they're selling dreams. We buy them.

Reality Bites?

2004-10-18T13:02:00.000+08:00

'..I thought the 6 am news would never air but it aired and it's time for me to close my eyes while the rest of the world turns and minding their own business..'

'..So here we go again. Another beginning of day. Can the time just freeze a while please.. and let me rest some more? What's so enchanting out there anyway? Worth me rushing off my bed. Wonder if my dreams make sequel. A moment pause from reality. I refuse to get along with the world..'

I must have been feeling pretty low. College can be a real drag at times.

From the movie Reality Bites.

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Michael Grates: Have I stepped over some line in the sands of coolness with you? Because excuse me if somebody doesn't know the secret handshake with you.

Troy Dyer: There's no secret handshake. There's an IQ prerequisite, but there's no secret handshake.
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Troy Dyer: [answering the phone] Hello, you've reached the winter of our discontent.
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Vickie: Sometimes I get that not-so-fresh feeling.
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Lelaina Pierce: I'd like to somehow make a difference in peoples' lives.

Troy Dyer: And I... I would like to buy them all a Coke.

Lelaina Pierce: And you wonder why we never got involved?
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Troy Dyer: He's the reason Cliffs Notes were invented.
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Vickie Miner: I'm late for a jean folding seminar. Let's locomote!
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Lelaina Pierce: Are you religious?

Michael Grates: Um, uh, I guess uh, I guess I'm, uh a non-practicing Jew.

Lelaina Pierce: Hey, I'm a non-practicing virgin.
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Lelaina Pierce: I was really going to be somebody by the time I was 23.

Troy Dyer: Honey, all you have to be by the time you're 23, is yourself.

Lelaina Pierce: I don't know who that is anymore.

Troy Dyer: I do. And we all love her. I love her. She breaks my heart again and again. But I love her.
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Vickie: Evian is naive spelled backward.
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Lelaina Pierce: Hey Sammy, what's your goal?

Sammy: My goal is... I'd like a career or something.
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Lelaina Pierce: Alright fine you wanna be in a band fine. Go ahead. Play everynight. Play three times a night! Don't just dick around the same coffee house for five years. Don't dick around with her; or with me. I mean try at something for once in your life, do something about it. But you know what? You better do it now and you better do it fast because the world doesn't owe you any favors.
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[assuming the question had no answer at all]

Lelaina: Can you define "irony"?

Troy Dyer: It's when the actual meaning is the complete opposite from the literal meaning.
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Charlane McGregor: Why dont you get a job at the Burgerrama? they'll hire you

Lelaina: Because I was the Valedictorian of my University!

Tom Pierce: Well you dont have to put that on your application
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Lelaina Pierce: I have to work around here, and unfortunately Troy, you are a master at the art of time suckage.

Being Children

2004-10-13T18:03:00.000+08:00

On my 20th birthday I said to my Mom with a big smile and stretched out hands that I was twenty and all grown up. Mom walked off and non-chalantly said 'To me you're always 5'.
In their minds we never really grow up.

Control Freak

2004-10-12T11:51:00.000+08:00

'.. I'm not a control freak. I've got all this little balls up in the air, and if someone tries to catch it, I'll lose them all..' Melanie Parker-One fine day

Count Your Blessings

2004-10-06T13:16:00.001+08:00

Across from my room I could hear Mommy & Daddy Walker say their bedtime prayer. They thank God for every blessings that day down to the littlest one. They thank God for the strawberry ice cream we had in the living room one day coming home from a mass at 11 pm.

They thank God for other people in their lives and the blessings those other people have had. They asked forgiveness for every mistakes they have done throughout the day and forgiveness for the mistakes of other people they know.

'.. For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer. Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair. Walk beside the pony Daddy, it's my first ride. I know the cake looks funny Daddy, but I sure tried. With all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right. To deserve a hug every morning, and butterfly kisses at night..' Bob Carlisle

Box of Chocolate On Weekend

2004-10-05T14:09:00.000+08:00

The grandparent's. Loads of laundry. Movies. And trying to get every possible mind distraction of passing up two applications deadline. Life is about making decisions. Or is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you're getting --Mrs. Gump--.

What Am I To Do...

2004-10-01T16:14:00.000+08:00

The Library will be closed until November 22 for reopening. Bummer...

To What Do I Owe The Serenity of The Night Sky?

2004-10-01T15:29:00.000+08:00

"Lonestar where are you out tonight? This feeling I'm trying to fight. It's dark and I think that I would give anything for you to shine down on me. How far you are, I just don't know the distance I'm willing to go. I pick up a stone that I cast to the sky. Hoping for some kind of sign." Lee Alexander.

The picture is perfect with the song, I thought.

Early Birthday WIsh

2004-09-29T13:09:00.000+08:00

Birthday is not until late next month but I really wanna talk about it. Hehe...
Was just wishing if I could possibly have the day all to myself. Dissapear for one day. No calls, no cards, no, gifts, no kisses, no hugs. I figured if I've spent all my 364 days with people, I'd like to have that one day all to myself. A perfect getaway to a fancy hotel. Order in-room breakfast. Out shopping for a new pair of shoes. Movies. Two hour bath. Dress up nicely and dining downstair. And sleep in a shirt. This can't happen, cause I will have to work that day. Maybe one day. All day my birthday, one birthday somewhere.